Do I know you?
I met someone tonight that was in the 82d quite a few years before I was. Oh man, the stories were flyin'. Good times! He had a caveat to everything I said. The frustrating part was that as soon as I started talking, his attention was easily distracted. My part of the conversation was always cut off. That's cool I guess. I'm told I don't really have a good speaking voice so it's whatever. I light of this, I wonder if I'm supposed to be a 'listener' in my life. I always get the feeling that whenever I open my mouth, no one cares. I mean, I understand that some people really don't give a shit, but some people that I want to actually talk to may not really care what I have to say. Its another explanation as to why I tend to remain so quiet. Sometimes I'll tell some high impact stories just to vent a little bit. I hope I don't become one of those weird people that talks to random by-passers while they think to themselves 'who is this weirdo?'
I guess I need to quit evaluating why people are talking to me and just go with it. The next thing I have to contend with is trust. I have an un welcomed bias that people are more often than not, up to no good. Maybe I'm just cynical. Maybe I just need someone to impress me.