What Dave gots...

One of the things that I've been thinking about to get my mind off the stress of the last few weeks of flight school is the idea of having someone new in my life. I'm in no way desperate for anything and refuse to settle for anything less than perfect but I have to think critically about why I'm in the 'social position' that I'm in.

I've been let down a lot in my life. In no way is that meant to be a depressing statement about my overall outlook on people. I guess a better way to say it is that I've given everything I thought I could to people and the only thing I got in return is their free time. I don't fault them. I fault myself for this. I tend to attract to people who need what I have to offer by nature. It's nothing fun...

In 'guy talk' I think of the smokin' hot girl that a guy changes his entire demeanor for and gets to take her home... He then realizes after a period of time that she's about as smart as a box of rocks and has more issues than Time magazine. Well, I don't want to change who I am to try and impress someone who I think might be my soul mate... (Or even just a friend)... I'm just laid back Dave. No crazy antics, no pompous behavior... Just me in my element. I'm boring. Similar to that Marilyn Monroe quote, if someone doesn't like me at my worst, then why the hell would I give them the best?

That's about all I have for that. Just a random thought process as I regretfully feel like falling asleep right about now...